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my revelation

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Wednesday, October 27, 2010

God I am Grateful

I call this blog “God I’m Grateful!” because sometimes you need to stop and take inventory of all of the wonderful things in your life. The holidays can be a really hectic time for some of us and for others very lonely. I think in the midst of all that stress it’s important for us to reflect on the positive.
I have been one of those people who is very lonely during the holidays. I tend to spend too much time remembering the lonely years. I have a new purpose this year though that helps me to stay positive. I will be involved in a new non-profit company that will change children’s lives. I am also writing a one-woman cabaret show about my life in front of the Oprah audience. The show will be set to music and feature some great stories, just working on it makes me happy.
I am very much in love. For all the people who say that your odds of meeting someone go down the older you get, I say, ‘if I had hope than so should you!” I didn’t even start dating until 2004 and boy was I bad at it at first! I scared many men away until I learned how to do it right. I’m starting to let more people into my life instead of keeping them at arms length. My family is relatively healthy and still around for me to love.
I can walk in the snow instead of staying in all winter until the ice melts, I don’t have to be afraid of falling because I can get myself up now without the Brooklyn fire department having to pull me up with many men and a tarp, true story. I have friends who wish that I didn’t have to tell a story like that, that wish I could let go of that part of my life. Reflecting on stories like that once in awhile helps me to know how truly grateful I am. I have a beautiful dog who licks me and makes me laugh every day without fail.
Learning to love my body after all this weight loss and gain, plastic surgery and scars, has been a process, but I can honestly tell you I have come a long way baby! I can look at myself naked in the mirror and am no longer disgusted or feeling like I want to cry. I even at times feel very sexy!
I am so grateful for my friends and fans and all of the people who support me on Facebook, both old friends and new.
So there you have it, Stacey is going into 2011 with a grateful list. What makes you grateful? If you don’t want to tell me, than promise me that you will tell yourself. I am going to try and complain less this year. Last, but not least, I am grateful that you spent a moment of your life to come to my website. Wow, I am lucky!
With love and support!

Friday, September 24, 2010

What would you attempt to do if you knew you could not fail?

All week long I have been passing that sign on the top of my computer. I did not really read it until I became totally frustrated with a job that really seems impossible to finish. I sat back in my armchair and said it over and over in my head.” What would I attempt to do if I knew I could not fail“. The answer became clear, very simply I would believe in my self totally with no doubts.

My boyfriend is out of town and will be home soon and I promised myself and him that my apartment would totally be done, being clean, when he got home. I have been trying to keep him out as much as possible because I am just so embarrassed with the mess. He keeps telling me I’ll be free to do all the other things I want to do; if I just organize myself. IT’S really come to a boiling point because when I leave my house I cannot find anything I need. So it’s very frustrating.

I have been working on it for a month and have a week left. It’s down to the hardest part because I keep making piles of things to save, and bags of things to give away or throw out. I keep moving the piles as I cleaned. Now I have all this stuff and nowhere to put it. I am determined not to spend a penny on storage because I just do not believe in it. If any of you know Manhattan apartments you will know I speak the truth that there is no closet space in these small apartments.

I work and work on it then I get frustrated and go out. I have to prove to myself I can finish this. It will be nice to see his proud look when he walks through the door next week. I want to believe with my whole heart that I can accomplish this!

I am my own worst enemy because a lot of times I won’t attempt something because if I fail at accomplishing what I set out to do, I find it very disappointing. I promise myself that this time after I finish the cleaning I am going to come up with a clear maintenance program just like when I lose weight.
A clear plan of what it will take in effort to maintain my clean apartment, its so important and that we live in a clean space and that when we come home at the end of the day we truly want to walk through our own front door. So many times I stay out just to avoid it. I find it much easier to eat healthy when I live clean.

Hope you are all well and please share with me what you would attempt to do if you knew you could not fail? I know my readers will love to read others opinions and what you deal with. All my love and respect….Stacey

Friday, August 27, 2010

How long till happy

There is no man or dog, leading role, pair of earrings, book publication or appearance that can make me anywhere as happy as a single day of healthy eating and taking care of myself: soul and body!!! Friends, please listen to what I have to say because I think it may have a real meaning for you!!!!!

When I left to go to diet camp on June 24th, I was so unhappy and my life was falling apart in every area. Then, after seven days of clean and healthy eating a state of happiness returned to my life!! I mean it!!!!

Did my financial troubles go away-no! did my bad relationships suddenly get healed -no! Did my apartment that I left in total disarray clean itself -no! Only one single thing happened in that week that brought back my happiness: a full week of clean and healthy eating and moving more. I am not kidding you; that's all it took. One week. Slowly but surely everything else seemed more doable. I started socializing at camp instead of taking time off to be alone. I started helping others and in turn they helped me. I talked about the problems I had waiting for me at home and great ideas were thrown my way regarding how to manage those problems. I met lifelong friends and all this in a summer. Six-short-weeks!!

It may take time to lose weight but happiness returns so quickly in such an environment that your head will spin. I have a whole new outlook on life. The things I mentioned in the first line of this blog: I love those things, but they mean absolutely nothing if I’m not taking care of myself.

Something happened in the last two days that was a real reward to me. Since I’ve been on the Oprah Show a number of times over the years, I have always been recognized and always cheered on in the streets, no matter where I went. Last year was the first time in a long time that no one recognized me and I have to admit it hurt my feelings because I knew the reason why. Not only had I gained some weight, I hid all winter in a very big coat and walked with my head hung low. Over the last two days, I’ve been recognized in the streets of Manhattan once again. One lady called out on the bus today: "Hey, you’re the women from Oprah; you look great! It made me feel very proud to be recognized because I knew it meant I had taken weight off and my head was held high again! When I weighed over 500 lbs, it took till I lost 145 pounds before anyone noticed anything and even then they were not sure if I cut my hair or lost weight. Now all it took is a thirty pound weight loss!! To me that is incredible progress.

I learned this summer that just because you gain weight does not mean you have to go all the way back! I love watching Al Roker: he gained some back after gastric bypass and he lost it again. We can be like normal people who gain some weight then lose it again. My way of thinking used to be if I even gained twenty it meant I was going to gain it back plus more! Camp Shining Stars ( is the place!! It may be for children but it sure gave me the chance and the tools to get my head back on straight. I have been looking for some time for a business venture to explore. But I really found nothing I was passionate about. When I went away this summer I found a business that really sparked my interest and I’m so excited about it. In the coming months I will be sharing about it in my blog.

As I am writing this, my new favorite song just came on the radio. Alisha Keys " New York. " I am smiling from ear to ear and my smile feels contagious. To all my friends suffering with eating issues, I promise happiness could be seven days away for you too! I dare you to eat healthy for seven days and not feel happy about what you have accomplished!
I am so very grateful! I have a new start!!!
Love, Stacey

Wednesday, July 21, 2010

A Summer To Remenber

Dear Readers,
As I walked out of my Manhattan apartment to catch my flight to Wilson, North Carolina, where I was to teach drama at a weight loss camp, I never fathomed being happier than I’ve been in a long time. Spending time at Camp Shining Stars for the last four weeks has instilled a sense of peace and fulfillment in me that I have long craved. I feel much appreciated as the campers listen to my story and ask me many questions on a daily basis. I pray that I can lead by example and teach them the importance of learning from mistakes and to never go as far as I went with food addiction.
As a child, I attended Weightwatchers’ Camps, where I had fun and lost a lot of weight, but I can honestly say it was no comparison to a camper’s experience here at Camp Shining Stars. The Weightwatchers’ Camps had anywhere from 400-600 campers, whereas this camp will not accept over 100. The number makes all the difference, because it allows the staff to give true dedication to each and every child, getting to know them individually, and really tending to their needs. This is a nonprofit camp and the director, Ira Green, spends every waking minute of his summer caring for the campers. As a camper, I never failed to gain back my summer weight losses, but at this camp, campers are more apt to lose weight and maintain their loss. Also, they offer a psychological component that was not available to me in my camp days. The children are able to verbally express their feelings and to learn that eating is not an effective way to deal with emotions.
For me, this experience has been ideal. I love the staff and environment, and I’m able to focus on losing my own weight, while motivating the campers to lose as well. What could be better! In addition, my dog Tushy, the love of my life, is having a ball and, believe it or not, lost a pound himself, which is incredible for a dog’s body. Ira claims he’s lost weight because he’s no longer getting scraps from my food binges. How Funny! I have a lot more to tell you all, so be sure to continue reading my blogs! Although I consider myself a diet expert, I find myself learning and even relearning valuable, life lessons at this camp. I hope you all are having a fun and meaningful summer.
With Love,

Friday, June 25, 2010

Arrived in North Carolina

I made it to camp!I forgot how hot North Carolina is in the summer. The heat was a shock to me and my dog Tush. Tush is so happy to see grass and trees that he does not know what to do with himself. The next two days is training and the kids arrive on Sunday. This is a brand new experience for me . I was a camper at a diet camp when I was growing up and now Ill be teaching drama and sharing all my experience strength and hope with the kids. I know for sure they will teach me a lot. I guess also since I never had kids this is a way to meet that need for me. The camp director seems to really care about the outcome of this summer and how it may change these kids lives. This should be a very different experience for me. Its fun to do something when you cannot predict what each new day will bring. I hope you are all well and having a good summer so far. With Love...... Stacey