Tuesday, September 25, 2007

living in the gray

I don't know about you but when my life isn't totally exciting or on the opposite spectrum really low and sometimes dramatic,i find it hard to know how to live. We as addicts are used to black and white thinking but i have found on my journey towards recovery that life has a lot of gray in between Moments in life which i call gray days.Those days when it seems you have nothing to look forward to and their is nothing dramatic going on. Regular old days are the hardest for me. I sometimes don't know how to function without excitement or drama whether it be bad or good. I know it is important for me to learn to live in the gray because in most people's lives that makes up most the majority of their time.I feel particularly lonely without excitement. When i was 550 lbs there was always something dramatic going on and as i lost weight there was a tremendous amount of excitement but now i am in the gray again and trying to be ok with it. I know there is always excitement around the corner but i must learn to function when life is quiet. I would love to hear if anyone out there can relate to this gray day syndrome? with love..... stacey

3 Comments:

Anonymous Anonymous said...

Stacey,
We all have grey days...it's just the tide going out for a while...but remember the tide eventually comes back again.
God bless and keep on. Your a wonderful inspiration to so many including me!
Beth
PS...I wrote you an email agan today . hope you can respond when you get a chance

September 27, 2007 at 11:59 AM  
Anonymous melody said...

i feel what you are talking about all the time i just never put it into words. highs and lows thats what i function best in so i too need to learn to cope with the "quiet times" thanks stacey i think i needed to hear this today. your friend melody in atlanta

September 28, 2007 at 10:57 AM  
Anonymous Eileen said...

Hi Stacey,
Boy do I know what you're talking about. I've been in OA now for a little over a year. I'm abstinent and eating 3 meals a day. I'm bored, I'm in the grey--and so I shop online to "feel" and to avoid other feelings too. I want a new outfit, I want attention, I want drama! But really inside I just want peace and love. Thanks for the reminder. I read you book and I loved it. I have my box - for when I need survival tools.
Love,
Eileen

October 25, 2007 at 3:13 PM  

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