Tuesday, October 6, 2009

Waiting For The Shoe To Drop!

Sometimes life is going along so great. My physical, emotional and spiritual being all seem to be in line. I feel happy, fulfilled and loved all at once… and then the shoe drops.

My mom flew in from Florida to come see me speak at the Javits Center last Saturday for the American Diabetes Expo. My mom has seen me do it all. Not only has she seen me thru 11 surgeries but she has seen me film a movie, be on television, act in shows, and write a book. The only thing she has not seen me do is talk to people and motivate them. Also she has not seen me do a book signing. It was a lot of fun for us.

Two days later I was to meet her for lunch to say goodbye and she would head back to Florida. My mom has been a breast cancer survivor for over 20 yrs and once a yr when she is in New York visiting me she goes to her cancer doctor for a mammogram and check up. I was to meet her in the lobby after her very routine exam, and then we would do lunch. Instead of her being in the lobby I got a call on my cell phone telling me to come up to the doctor’s office because she needed to have a needle biopsy on a lump the doctor found. From that moment on everything changed.

Three days later I was waiting for her to come out of surgery. She has not gone back to Florida yet. They won’t know anything till Wednesday, and I will meet her at 9am to hear the results. Because of the news, I am hungry and scared.

On the positive side, I have seen my mom recover from cancer before, but I really thought after twenty yrs it was done. It also brings up my own fears as we have an extensive breast cancer history in the family. My mom is a very strong woman and I believe she can get thru anything, but it is just hard to deal with. I want to be there for her but sometimes my own fears for her overwhelm me. Wednesday will not be easy, but stuffing it with food would only make it worse and also aggravate my own chances for cancer. I love my mom and I am happy to be mobile enough now that I truly can be here for her. I am thinking about you all and hope you have a great and productive week. All the best…..StaceyWAITING

11 Comments:

Anonymous Sarah, Margaret and all the Morrissey team said...

Stacey, we're thinking about you and your mom. Please keep us posted and know we're sending positive thoughts your way.

October 7, 2009 at 12:12 PM  
Blogger Stacey said...

Dear Morrissey team, Those positive thoughts coming from you guys means more to me than you will ever know! with love....stacey

October 7, 2009 at 3:25 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Stacey. I thought your blog was great. Thanks for all the support. I love you, MOM

October 7, 2009 at 4:52 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

I love the blog! Love you and Aunt Faith! Stay Positive! xoxoxo

October 7, 2009 at 7:09 PM  
Anonymous christine said...

ok, it's wednesday. what happened with your mom? Please don't leave us all hanging. Whatever the outcome may be, please know that you and mom are being prayed for. Love you

October 7, 2009 at 8:23 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Hi Stacey,

All my prayers are with your mom.

I was at a meeting by you today but had to run.

I am looking forward to sitting with you and chatting in person one day.

Love,
Adrienne

October 7, 2009 at 8:44 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

I just realized that today is Wednesday.
How is your mom?
Adrienne

October 7, 2009 at 8:46 PM  
Anonymous M. Hebranko said...

Sash
Mom is strong and So is God! What ever is going to be will be but you doing what you have done with your life has meant more to your mom than you can imagine...I know I am a parent. Yes, now it is time for you to be there for her and I am sure you will be. Your family and friends will be there for you but you must be there for her. A positive state of mind and surroundings is also part of the treatment. No one has a better sense of humor than you and you can make anyone laugh...so let the laughs roll.
Your mom has a great name "Faith" and that is exactly what it will take now ...Faith! Faith will get you through this...Faith in life, Faith in each other and Faith in a higer power. We both now that Higher power is not found in a grocery store or fast food joint.
Take care of mom but I know you will take care of you too. You are a winner, a leader and a great daughter!
All my best wishes and you guys are in my prayers
Mike

October 7, 2009 at 8:50 PM  
Blogger meredith said...

Stacey:
I wish i would have seen this sooner, I would have visited you in NYC. As you know I am a hugh Breast Cancer fundraiser. This weekend is the Avon Walk for Breast Cancer around manhattan (this is my 5th year). My team of 33 women have raised over $350,000 so far. I will be sure to add moms name to the signage I carry supporting all those survivors we love and pray for.
Will contact you after the walk. Love and prayers with you and mom. Meredith (MEDA)

October 7, 2009 at 9:18 PM  
Blogger stacey said...

Mike
my mom and i thought what you had to say was both beautiful and very wise! you are a true friend . i love you .....stacey

October 9, 2009 at 2:37 PM  
Blogger stacey said...

MEDA!!! thank you and your friends for doing such a great job in your fund raising . That is fantastic. Call me.

October 9, 2009 at 2:44 PM  

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