Wednesday, January 13, 2010

"We are as sick as our secrets"'

Every year, since I can remember, my New Year’s resolution had to do with weight and never anything else. This year it is going to be different, for the first time, because I now believe if I can work on this particular issue, everything that has to do with weight will just keep getting better.

When people lose a lot of weight, unfortunately they usually exchange it with another bad addiction, which usually takes the place of the old one. I talk about this more in my book “Winning after Losing’. For some it becomes like alcohol as Carne Wilson admitted she struggled with for awhile, for others it can become a sex addiction (my body is not in good enough shape for that one lol!} For me it turned out to be a shopping addiction. It all started out very innocently. .

My whole life I had to order all my clothes from a dress maker, because even the larger size stores did not carry my size. It would normally take about a month from the time I purchased the material till I got the finished clothes back; so when I got to the point where I lost enough weight to buy clothes in the stores I was literally (no pun intended) like a kid in a candy store. When I realized I could actually take the clothes home with me the same day well I went nuts!!!!!(More food talk lol) I started buying everything in sight just because it fit. It got to the point that if I had a guest stay at my apartment, I had to borrow a clothing rack to put in the living room. I have a small one bedroom apartment in Manhattan, so I was getting a bit closed in. It graduated to beyond clothes I had became a home shopping network addict. I almost bought a garden hose even though I don’t even have a backyard just because they described it on TV so well ha ha but I swear.

It had gotten so out of hand that I no longer allowed my boyfriend to come over to the apartment for several months, because I was embarrassed at what my apartment had become. I finally along with the help of my shrink, my mom and the cable show “Clean house” put two and two together. I had replaced half gallons of ice-cream and whole pizzas with “stuff”, and it did not matter if I went into debt to get it. It started to affect my healthy food choices and that’s when I realized how big this problem was. I vowed that this will be the year I de- clutter my life and my mind and even lose some more weight.

I once heard, ‘We are as sick as our secrets”. So this year, I am coming out of the closet, along with a lot of other junk, and I am going to fix my mess. I started already, in the last two weeks I have removed over twenty big garbage bags of trash out of my house. This is going to be just as hard for me as it was losing 300 lbs, but at least I know I am capable of that kind of change. So how about you? Do you have a junk draw or two that needs tending too? Join me on my de-clutter campaign in 2010. Have a great week…. with love Stacey

5 Comments:

Anonymous Anonymous said...

I think we all have those hidden secrets and we all compulsive in one way or another .. hello if i wasnt compulsive would i look like this lolol.........i know i do trade one compulsion for another all the time and its not really healthy .... But i do understand replaciing one addiction for another and what we need to do is not replace but to enhance what we already have.....to understand why we do what we do.. and not just hide it with another distraction ...
Hugggs and love
Carol

January 14, 2010 at 1:11 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

THAT'S A GREAT STORY AND IT'S SO TRUE. YOU REALLY GETTO THE HEART OF THE MATTER. THANKS FH

January 15, 2010 at 7:16 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

(I have removed over twenty big garbage bags of trash out of my house.)

Bet it still wasnt as bad as leavin Claras place...lol your strong im sure you'll do just fine. Your a survivor no matter what...

Huggs
The Frog that died

January 21, 2010 at 10:26 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

I assume this is a women called peggy but i'm not sure and although i remember the term "FROG THAT DIED" I somehow cannot remember the story so do tell.

January 21, 2010 at 4:53 PM  
Blogger Lisa said...

Hello Stacey,
I know you might not remember me, but I worked with you around 85' or 86' at Olsten Corp/ Accounts Rec in Westbury, NY. I saw your movie Bruno and wonder how you were. I found your website and saw how wonderful you look. Personally, I always thought you were beautiful. What impressed me as a young girl of 18 was how beautiful your make up was every day. I loved that you made me laugh. I hope your happy and life continues to try you well.
Talitha Simeona-Moon

February 17, 2010 at 10:53 PM  

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