Friday, September 24, 2010

What would you attempt to do if you knew you could not fail?

All week long I have been passing that sign on the top of my computer. I did not really read it until I became totally frustrated with a job that really seems impossible to finish. I sat back in my armchair and said it over and over in my head.” What would I attempt to do if I knew I could not fail“. The answer became clear, very simply I would believe in my self totally with no doubts.

My boyfriend is out of town and will be home soon and I promised myself and him that my apartment would totally be done, being clean, when he got home. I have been trying to keep him out as much as possible because I am just so embarrassed with the mess. He keeps telling me I’ll be free to do all the other things I want to do; if I just organize myself. IT’S really come to a boiling point because when I leave my house I cannot find anything I need. So it’s very frustrating.

I have been working on it for a month and have a week left. It’s down to the hardest part because I keep making piles of things to save, and bags of things to give away or throw out. I keep moving the piles as I cleaned. Now I have all this stuff and nowhere to put it. I am determined not to spend a penny on storage because I just do not believe in it. If any of you know Manhattan apartments you will know I speak the truth that there is no closet space in these small apartments.

I work and work on it then I get frustrated and go out. I have to prove to myself I can finish this. It will be nice to see his proud look when he walks through the door next week. I want to believe with my whole heart that I can accomplish this!

I am my own worst enemy because a lot of times I won’t attempt something because if I fail at accomplishing what I set out to do, I find it very disappointing. I promise myself that this time after I finish the cleaning I am going to come up with a clear maintenance program just like when I lose weight.
A clear plan of what it will take in effort to maintain my clean apartment, its so important and that we live in a clean space and that when we come home at the end of the day we truly want to walk through our own front door. So many times I stay out just to avoid it. I find it much easier to eat healthy when I live clean.

Hope you are all well and please share with me what you would attempt to do if you knew you could not fail? I know my readers will love to read others opinions and what you deal with. All my love and respect….Stacey