Wednesday, October 27, 2010

God I am Grateful

I call this blog “God I’m Grateful!” because sometimes you need to stop and take inventory of all of the wonderful things in your life. The holidays can be a really hectic time for some of us and for others very lonely. I think in the midst of all that stress it’s important for us to reflect on the positive.
I have been one of those people who is very lonely during the holidays. I tend to spend too much time remembering the lonely years. I have a new purpose this year though that helps me to stay positive. I will be involved in a new non-profit company that will change children’s lives. I am also writing a one-woman cabaret show about my life in front of the Oprah audience. The show will be set to music and feature some great stories, just working on it makes me happy.
I am very much in love. For all the people who say that your odds of meeting someone go down the older you get, I say, ‘if I had hope than so should you!” I didn’t even start dating until 2004 and boy was I bad at it at first! I scared many men away until I learned how to do it right. I’m starting to let more people into my life instead of keeping them at arms length. My family is relatively healthy and still around for me to love.
I can walk in the snow instead of staying in all winter until the ice melts, I don’t have to be afraid of falling because I can get myself up now without the Brooklyn fire department having to pull me up with many men and a tarp, true story. I have friends who wish that I didn’t have to tell a story like that, that wish I could let go of that part of my life. Reflecting on stories like that once in awhile helps me to know how truly grateful I am. I have a beautiful dog who licks me and makes me laugh every day without fail.
Learning to love my body after all this weight loss and gain, plastic surgery and scars, has been a process, but I can honestly tell you I have come a long way baby! I can look at myself naked in the mirror and am no longer disgusted or feeling like I want to cry. I even at times feel very sexy!
I am so grateful for my friends and fans and all of the people who support me on Facebook, both old friends and new.
So there you have it, Stacey is going into 2011 with a grateful list. What makes you grateful? If you don’t want to tell me, than promise me that you will tell yourself. I am going to try and complain less this year. Last, but not least, I am grateful that you spent a moment of your life to come to my website. Wow, I am lucky!
With love and support!